At a bar I saw a woman that was wearing all the jewelry in the world she owned waiting for her  long lost love every night and no one even noticed her

And again the sadness hits my mind and the train of questions follow..is it the right decision ..is it? I am in need for praying.

ای ساربان ..لیلای من کجا می بری ..

Sometimes you realize it when it is too late..Life does not wait for you to heal..It continues its  survival and if you don't get on your feet fast..you might miss your chance of life time so dont wait for the right moment or the right time..just do it becuase you will never know what is going to happen tomorrow or a week or a year later

This has become my life principle since age 22..!

Relaxation is needed and has to be conqured..

Reading a poetry or sitting in silence for 5 min

or even a hot bubble bath , candles, music and making love

I am back and very depressed and confused..why love has always been the most challening aspect of my life..I see my friends that their life has started and they are enjoying every bits of it but I am stuck in the same point. I hope one day I can look back on this day and tell myself you were uselessly worried life is great and you and love has reunited and living happily..I wannt to see that day sooner than ever..

When does my life start???When..

هی با خود فکر می‌کنم،

چگونه است که ما ، در این سر دنیا ، عرق می ریزیم و وضع مان این است و آنها ، در آن سر دنیا ، عرق می خورند و وضع شان آن است! ...

 نمی دانم ، مشکل در نوع عرق است یا در نوع ریختن و خوردن

- دکتر شريعتي

I might have to go back to Iran..that might be the purpose of my life to make the difference..I think my capability of making difference in the life of people over there is more important for me..I might have to go back..One day!

What strikes me the most about humans are their adaptation to changes and being able to survive in the most undesirable times. Second amazing point about humans is their affection and passion to live the years and age and at last they could be the most lovable yet disturbing  funniest most entertaining creatures in this world..I love humans in general not all of them but the people that surrounds me 

PRECIOUS LOVE ;)  

when most of your friends go out as couples and they hang out as couples..I feel absolutely lonely more than ever..and wonder when it would be me..when

After watching "my sister's keeper" movie and crying for 2 hrs, I felt blessed to be healthy and live a long life..there are so many of these little sisters out there that are struggling to live another day and yet we take the day in our lives forgranted as if we ought to live..in the movie I felt the love of a family and sometimes I miss that feeling in my own life..I wish things were not like the way they are now and me, my sister, and my parents would not be so disconnected..alas I wish one day I could see my family to be functional again..

I just hope and pray my future family would not resemble my own family as of now..so I can have a peaceful, functional and happy family...I hope

Disagreemnet is sparked when different people look at the same situation differently and analyze it based on their own standards in life. Is this fair..I guess not but as some one told me Life is not fair too!!

Today I am going to say it even though it is going to be so hard..sometimes once its gone,..you can rarely regain the same emotion back such as love

Life is all about the journey and I have to stop getting stuck in the same cycles..so tired of break ups!

 Sometimes when you express your emotion frequently, it becomes a routine habit to the people you love and the person that once could not stand to see you cry would call you queen drama! Sometimes I wish people would see what they do wrong as well!  

          آرزویی که سالهای گذشته دور از دست به نظر می رسید..مدتی هست که خیلی به من نزدیک شده..خدایا این آخرین قدم های من رو به این هدفم محکم تر نگه دار..شاید این آخرین آرزوی من در این قسمت زندگیم باشه..

دلم بدجوری هوس گل های یاس کرده ته کوچه نیلوفر غربی..پاسداران..تهران..ایران!

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face

We learn to observe rather than judge..It is hard and with the sensitive nature of mine I just cannot let the observation analyze the situation. How can I be an outsider in the most delicate matter of my life..

Well I also learned to be patient in life and let the time reveal the truth..whether it is love, job, happiness, or success we have to dream to reach it.

I might be pessimestic in my writings or thoughts but yet I never lose the hope and frankly that is the only thing that holds the chain of my life story together..without hope I would have been a hella crazy girl..even though some might think I am still crazy yet cute